My motivation for education is to become a writer, not only that but also to become smarter, successful, make a difference, and finally make my family proud.
Being a writer has been a dream of mine for a while now. I seem to chase my own kind of freedom and I see a lot of that in writing. When I was in rehab for an eating disorder I found a way of escaping and letting thoughts, emotions, and struggles out through journaling. Unfortunately, along with the natural ability to write comes with knowledge that you get from school. My motivation is to become a better writer so I can achieve that freedom I long for.
Without a solid education you are less likely to make a difference because people may not take you seriously. Sadly, it’s harder these days to prove to people that you know something because we all as humans can be judgmental; not understanding that some things can be outside the norm. The people who never want to accept change will always be disappointed. No doubt about it, the world and society are always transforming into something else. As well as knowing less academically, which has hurt my motivation throughout high school because I didn't think I was as smart as the others and was made to feel that way by my piers. I was told I was just stupid, leading me to stop trying completely. Even though I knew more about life than most of them, somehow I was still treated like I knew nothing not only by the students but the teachers as well. This can shape a child's view on education no matter what the circumstances may be. In my opinion, the teachers that I had experienced focussed more on the kids that were doing well than the ones who needed a little extra TLC, but of course that was someone else's job.
My family is a big part too, I finally want to prove to them that I am more than a screw up, can achieve things on my own, and I don't have to be a burden to them any longer. Being willing to do things on my own but not knowing how has left me feeling helpless and more likely to give up. My parents would get upset with me for abandoning an assignment that was difficult or not trying hard enough, when in reality I didn't know how to improve or better myself because I wasn't taught how. Wake Tech has gotten me back to being confident in school, knowing it won't be easy but encouraging me and guiding me to be successful. You can't do everything on your own. Now I am not afraid to ask questions because to make a change I need to gain more wisdom. With all that being said, I am slowly learning that I am not helpless and I haven't lost my fire of motivation. Beating the odds as well as remembering I can do hard things.
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